Well, there are a lot of things going on in this household. Very stressful things actually. We are having a hard time right now. I know a lot of people are right now. and I am not saying that ours is worse that theirs, but I just kind of want to get it off my chest right now.
First off, Ricks job is changing his medical insurance. Which is lowering his medical coverage amount. Therefore it is lowering his prescription coverage amount too. Which will only cover maybe 3-4 of my prescription refills. Now, maybe more since 2 of them are generic now. I can enroll in part D of my medicare. Which I will in late DEC, but I will not get any scripts until I run out of my 3 month scripts. Explain in a moment. medicare does not have one of my pills listed as generic yet. So I am waiting until end of DEC. My current prescription coverage off 3 month supply. So I am going to get a 3 month until I have to get it from Medicare. Hopefully by then they will have Keppra, maybe even Topamax on generic.
Now, because of all of this, Rick is looking into changing jobs all together. Not just changing jobs, but professions. He wants to get his CDL's and go on the road. I always support him on everything he does. And that is because he does whatever he has to do to support his family.
And that is what a "real man" does. And I have the utmost respect for him in that matter.
I am considering getting peachcare for May since she will be on limited resources.
We can barely make rent. I have to borrow money from my mom to make rent. Since it is X-Mas, it will be real hard for her to swing. Rick put in for his vacation hours so he can swing some x-tra cash. We are thinking that will help some.
Brother owes me 50 bucks for a little work that I did for him.
The only thing that we have going for us right now is the 401 k that he would get after he quits to go on the road and the little bit on income tax refund that we might get back.
We were hoping to get a loan to pay for his driving school. But he is considering to contract with a driving company. He did not want to do that, but this is a reputable company. Not to mention, my uncle works there too. Hopefully, my uncle will split the referral money. But I seriously doubt it. Wishful thinking though.
I really have to get the house cleaned up today so I can get ready to make the deviled eggs for turkey day. Ugh I am really dreading that. I swear that is the most grueling thing to do.
Not to mention we have to make the rolls too. They are from O'Charley's so we have to proof, then cook, blah blah, blah....
Well, that is my post for right now.
Maybe another one today. I have been working on 1-2 I just cannot get the words together right. I cant figure out what I want to say.
Hmmmm..., I am typing and thinking, pretty good for someone who has not had a lick of sleep. I am just worried about my seizures later today.
take care and happy turkey day if you don't hear from me later
Dogma
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Friday, November 21, 2008
I Remember You Pt 2
The past...Is is a joy or a nightmare? I guess it really depends on your experiences and the friends that you had at that time in your life.
Literally, right now, I am reflecting on many different experience with a guy (not sexually), that i used to hang out with. All we did was go to Waffle House and have coffee. That is it. And we would enjoy each others company. He and I got into an argument one time and we never talked again. I have to say. I miss him and I wonder what he is up to nowadays.
On the otherhand, I had experiences in my life that were "fun" at the time, but as I look back now, I realize how dangerous they were. And that those were the darkest days of my life. And I really have never told anyone about that time in my life. And I never will unless I turn catholic and am in a confession booth.
There were these girls that I was friends with 6 of them. I will not name names. But i enjoyed being around all of them. I hung out with them at different points in my life. Three in HS, one in college, and two I met later in life. The three in HS I hung out with them sepreatly. But after we graduated. Hard to explain I hope you understand.
Anyways, we all at some point stopped talking for some reason or another. I think about them all the time. I have even tried to look for them on MS or FB. But I actually have found only one.
I did get in touch with her. And it sounds like she is doing great. I hope to see her sometime soon.
Literally, right now, I am reflecting on many different experience with a guy (not sexually), that i used to hang out with. All we did was go to Waffle House and have coffee. That is it. And we would enjoy each others company. He and I got into an argument one time and we never talked again. I have to say. I miss him and I wonder what he is up to nowadays.
On the otherhand, I had experiences in my life that were "fun" at the time, but as I look back now, I realize how dangerous they were. And that those were the darkest days of my life. And I really have never told anyone about that time in my life. And I never will unless I turn catholic and am in a confession booth.
There were these girls that I was friends with 6 of them. I will not name names. But i enjoyed being around all of them. I hung out with them at different points in my life. Three in HS, one in college, and two I met later in life. The three in HS I hung out with them sepreatly. But after we graduated. Hard to explain I hope you understand.
Anyways, we all at some point stopped talking for some reason or another. I think about them all the time. I have even tried to look for them on MS or FB. But I actually have found only one.
I did get in touch with her. And it sounds like she is doing great. I hope to see her sometime soon.
I guess I have been thinking that since Rick is thinking about getting his CDL's and going on the road. I have been panicking. Knowing that I am not going to have anyone to talk to. No friends to turn to. And the only person I am going to have around me is Maycee. don't get me wrong, i love my doughter, I just will need adult conversation every now and then. And I just know that my mom will not want me to call her everyday. She will just tell me, "You knew what you were getting into." And I am just not going to want to hear that. Especially from her.
So, since I have been thinking about that. I have been thinking aobut all the friends that I have lost. And all the people that I have know in my past.
So, whatever you do, keep your friends close, and cherish every moment that you have with them.
Take Care,
Dogma
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Avoiding the Subject
Wah Wah Wah, yeah I know that is what I have been doing. Bitchin, whinin, and complain about the shit goin down in my life. Well, guess what there is more. But it's not just my life, it is yours too! It has been nearly 2 weeks since Obama has been elected, and I have not said a damn thing. Well, ya know what, I am about to now.
I can't believe it America. You fell for his shit. How in the world could you have been so naive?
I mean please. It was obvious that he had very little experience and had accomplished nothing. Not to mention the fact that he has associations with questionable friends. And well the best of all, he wants to, "spread the wealth." So c'mon y'all. How could have been duped by just his eloquent oral skills. And dont get a dirty mind when I say that! I am serious. Yes, I will admit that he is a great speaker. One of the finest, but geez, he really pulled the wool over your eyes.
And they way that he talked shit about Bush in the races, Bush had the eloquence to invite him, and show him around. That my friend, is a real MAN! I supported Bush all 8 years. Sure he made some mistakes. But you don't vote against the Republican party because you just hate what Bush did. You really should have gotten informed. Realized the truth about Obama.
Hell! He can't even pass his own application for the offices that he is hiring for. What does that say?
Look, I did vote for McCain. I do have to say that there could have been a better nominee, but I was dead set against O. He really rubbed me the wrong way.
The one thing that I will give O his respect for, and he deserves, is that he openly admitted that he has done coke before. Unlike Clinton, "I did not inhale!" when confronted about potential marijuana use. Yeah right!
Off track for a second, I was at lil 5 in Atlanta one day, and this bum asked for 5 dollars so he can score some weed. Ya know what, I did not have it. But I would have given it to him, maybe even more since he was HONEST with me. You see bums on the street all the time, "I need money for food (to get home)" Or other crap like that but you know 3/4 of them end up buying drugs or alcohol with the money that you donate to them.
My fault in life is honesty. I love it when people are honest with me. And I have lost many friends because of it. I made promises I could not keep because I had to be honest and tell the other person the truth. And boils down to I lost all of my friends that way. And I still haven't learned from that.
Obama, he was not honest. He never told the Americans that he was friends with terrorists. And he doesn't want us to know exactly how his tax plan is going to go. That is why he keeps flip flopping. And he has taken the trust of the American people and ran into the White House with it. People that have voted Obama are already regretting their vote. Are you?
I can't believe it America. You fell for his shit. How in the world could you have been so naive?
I mean please. It was obvious that he had very little experience and had accomplished nothing. Not to mention the fact that he has associations with questionable friends. And well the best of all, he wants to, "spread the wealth." So c'mon y'all. How could have been duped by just his eloquent oral skills. And dont get a dirty mind when I say that! I am serious. Yes, I will admit that he is a great speaker. One of the finest, but geez, he really pulled the wool over your eyes.
And they way that he talked shit about Bush in the races, Bush had the eloquence to invite him, and show him around. That my friend, is a real MAN! I supported Bush all 8 years. Sure he made some mistakes. But you don't vote against the Republican party because you just hate what Bush did. You really should have gotten informed. Realized the truth about Obama.
Hell! He can't even pass his own application for the offices that he is hiring for. What does that say?
Look, I did vote for McCain. I do have to say that there could have been a better nominee, but I was dead set against O. He really rubbed me the wrong way.
The one thing that I will give O his respect for, and he deserves, is that he openly admitted that he has done coke before. Unlike Clinton, "I did not inhale!" when confronted about potential marijuana use. Yeah right!
Off track for a second, I was at lil 5 in Atlanta one day, and this bum asked for 5 dollars so he can score some weed. Ya know what, I did not have it. But I would have given it to him, maybe even more since he was HONEST with me. You see bums on the street all the time, "I need money for food (to get home)" Or other crap like that but you know 3/4 of them end up buying drugs or alcohol with the money that you donate to them.
My fault in life is honesty. I love it when people are honest with me. And I have lost many friends because of it. I made promises I could not keep because I had to be honest and tell the other person the truth. And boils down to I lost all of my friends that way. And I still haven't learned from that.
Obama, he was not honest. He never told the Americans that he was friends with terrorists. And he doesn't want us to know exactly how his tax plan is going to go. That is why he keeps flip flopping. And he has taken the trust of the American people and ran into the White House with it. People that have voted Obama are already regretting their vote. Are you?
ooohhhh.... Maybe I should not be on the computer...LOL..
Last night when I was on the computer, something happened, I don't know what, and it took me about 6-8 hours to fix it. Not to mention the fact that I still have to call an 800# to remove an item from my computer. I think that I have to install an item to uninstall another item. That is just the way that I read it on this blog I found about this program that is on my computer. I think that this program started it all.. But I am not to sure.
I swear I wanted to throw this thing out the window last night. For the first half, I was sitting at the computer for each stepit was taking. If it took 15 minutes, I would wait at the screen 15 minutes or longer. Then in the last half. It got impatient. When I took a step on the computer, i would go sit on the couch and watch SNL or MADTV. Then, I swear as soon as I sat down, there was some sort of "progress" to be made. And so I would wait, sit down, progress. I was getting really ticked.
Finally I said, "Fuk it!" and went to bed. It is working better today. There was a virus scan done and nothing. So, there I dunno. I will just have to wait and see what is going to happen from here.
Well, I guess that I will talk at you another time
Have a great day!
DOGMA
Last night when I was on the computer, something happened, I don't know what, and it took me about 6-8 hours to fix it. Not to mention the fact that I still have to call an 800# to remove an item from my computer. I think that I have to install an item to uninstall another item. That is just the way that I read it on this blog I found about this program that is on my computer. I think that this program started it all.. But I am not to sure.
I swear I wanted to throw this thing out the window last night. For the first half, I was sitting at the computer for each stepit was taking. If it took 15 minutes, I would wait at the screen 15 minutes or longer. Then in the last half. It got impatient. When I took a step on the computer, i would go sit on the couch and watch SNL or MADTV. Then, I swear as soon as I sat down, there was some sort of "progress" to be made. And so I would wait, sit down, progress. I was getting really ticked.
Finally I said, "Fuk it!" and went to bed. It is working better today. There was a virus scan done and nothing. So, there I dunno. I will just have to wait and see what is going to happen from here.
Well, I guess that I will talk at you another time
Have a great day!
DOGMA
Saturday, November 15, 2008
The Plague
I guess that is what I am...The Plague. It seems as though when I begin talking to someone, all of a sudden it seems as though they are trying to get rid of me. I can take a hint. Don't hurt my feelings ok.
Ya know my hubby is at work all the time. I cant go anywhere. I cant drive. I have no friends. The only thing around me is my daughter. She is what keeps me going everyday.
I live in an apartment complex and if I do meet someone that lives here, well it is quite possible that they will move well before I do. And i just hate going out to make friends over and over again. I am not that type of person. And it so hard to make friends with people that don't have kids.
I am so tired of the shit! I am depressed. I am lonely. And I am sad.
There is nothing that I can do about it though. "Get out more often" people suggest. "And go where?" I say! Not like I am going to walk to Wal-Mart or Waffle House any time soon. Call me lazy, I don't give a damn. Not to mention, May cannot make that walk. She does have arthritis in her knees and ankles ya know?
Hell, I cannot even make friends on the Internet! How sad is that? :( I mean apparently its the easiest place to make friends right? But WTF? What am I doing wrong?
Well Have a great day cuz I'm not
Dogma
Ya know my hubby is at work all the time. I cant go anywhere. I cant drive. I have no friends. The only thing around me is my daughter. She is what keeps me going everyday.
I live in an apartment complex and if I do meet someone that lives here, well it is quite possible that they will move well before I do. And i just hate going out to make friends over and over again. I am not that type of person. And it so hard to make friends with people that don't have kids.
I am so tired of the shit! I am depressed. I am lonely. And I am sad.
There is nothing that I can do about it though. "Get out more often" people suggest. "And go where?" I say! Not like I am going to walk to Wal-Mart or Waffle House any time soon. Call me lazy, I don't give a damn. Not to mention, May cannot make that walk. She does have arthritis in her knees and ankles ya know?
Hell, I cannot even make friends on the Internet! How sad is that? :( I mean apparently its the easiest place to make friends right? But WTF? What am I doing wrong?
Well Have a great day cuz I'm not
Dogma
Friday, November 14, 2008
Just like it was...
So I have been hangin' out on Facebook for a bit, and all of a sudden all these folks that I have gone to high school with start showing up. I get a few friend suggestions, and then I get a few people that "want" to be friends with me. I ignore the suggestions, and accept the friend request.
Well, there are a few things.
One, I will not accept a "suggestion. " If someone wants to be friends with me then they will ask. There are few people that I want to be friends with. I am realizing that now after I have accepted some "suggestions".
There are a few people that have requested my friendship, and I have accepted them. However, I have come to realize that it is almost a competition to see how many friends that they can gather. This to me is obvious to me. The people that have requested my friendship have not even said a word to me. Nothing. Not even an acknowledgement. So, that bothers me. I always say thanks for the add, blah, whatever. And as I was going through their profile to see how many friends they have, I see 100+ and they just started after me!
Now, I know I was not the most popular person in HS, but it is all the same on the computer.
it is a bunch of BS. I feel like I am in HS again!
Don't get me wrong, there are people that I like and really truly care about on FB. But when others are going to act like Assholes, then what is the point of even being friends?
Really, that is why I have a limited amount of FB friends. Just so i wont get caught up into the mix of everyone.
Well, that is my bitch and complaint of the day.
Take care and have good one!
Dogma
Well, there are a few things.
One, I will not accept a "suggestion. " If someone wants to be friends with me then they will ask. There are few people that I want to be friends with. I am realizing that now after I have accepted some "suggestions".
There are a few people that have requested my friendship, and I have accepted them. However, I have come to realize that it is almost a competition to see how many friends that they can gather. This to me is obvious to me. The people that have requested my friendship have not even said a word to me. Nothing. Not even an acknowledgement. So, that bothers me. I always say thanks for the add, blah, whatever. And as I was going through their profile to see how many friends they have, I see 100+ and they just started after me!
Now, I know I was not the most popular person in HS, but it is all the same on the computer.
it is a bunch of BS. I feel like I am in HS again!
Don't get me wrong, there are people that I like and really truly care about on FB. But when others are going to act like Assholes, then what is the point of even being friends?
Really, that is why I have a limited amount of FB friends. Just so i wont get caught up into the mix of everyone.
Well, that is my bitch and complaint of the day.
Take care and have good one!
Dogma
Sunday, November 2, 2008
I Remember You....
I am going to be turning 35 in a few days, and it just happened to be that I found a few friends of mine from 20+ years ago. Now, we all had our birthdays the same week 5-8th. And, I dated one of the guys. Now really, I hold a very special place in my heart for him, and always have. We dated off and on for nearly 4 years. But we just couldn't get it together. So we both moved on.
I ended up getting married and having a beautiful lil girl, and a wonderful husband. And yet, I find myself thinking of him often. How is he doing and all that good stuff. Well, I did find him on My Space the other day, and well he is still single. I have not been able to get in touch with him yet.
Knowing that I am fixin to turn 35, I have looked back and thought of all of the people that I have known pre and post knowing my husband, and remembered all of the good times that I have had. I realized that having a child has changed all of that too. I do not get to go out as much as we used to. A lot of our friends moved on and had kids too.
My point being, I just really want to pop in on people and just say "Hey" just to let them know I am thinking about them. And to be honest, I wish someone would do the same for me.
I hope I wasn't that forgetful.
I ended up getting married and having a beautiful lil girl, and a wonderful husband. And yet, I find myself thinking of him often. How is he doing and all that good stuff. Well, I did find him on My Space the other day, and well he is still single. I have not been able to get in touch with him yet.
Knowing that I am fixin to turn 35, I have looked back and thought of all of the people that I have known pre and post knowing my husband, and remembered all of the good times that I have had. I realized that having a child has changed all of that too. I do not get to go out as much as we used to. A lot of our friends moved on and had kids too.
My point being, I just really want to pop in on people and just say "Hey" just to let them know I am thinking about them. And to be honest, I wish someone would do the same for me.
I hope I wasn't that forgetful.
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Welcome
Hi there. My name is irrelevant, I go by Dogma. I am married, and have a 6 yo girl. I have a dog named Beltain, and a cat named Crackers. We live in McDonough, and we love it.
If there is anything thing else you want to know just ask. I am almost an open book.
Have a Happy Halloween
D
If there is anything thing else you want to know just ask. I am almost an open book.
Have a Happy Halloween
D
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